My Self in Quotes

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“If anyone would be my disciple, let them disown themselves, take up their cross daily and follow me. Anyone who tries to save their life will lose it, but anyone who loses their life for my sake will save it.”  ~Luke 9:23-24

I am deeply self-absorbed. By nurture—only child, “look at me” type from early on; by nature—ruminative explorer, forever spelunking my own subterranean grotto. A noise interrupts. I turn to see a beam of light. “I’m sorry, is someone there, someone who exists apart from me? You mean I’m not the only real, living person?”

When I write, I willfully enter the labyrinthine thoughtscape where I chisel words that somehow, sometimes have meaning for others. But then I must carry them to the surface and climb back out into the light of human contact. I must once again force myself to listen. Must not only deliver messages, but must receive them.

And the only way I can do this is to die again and again to the self-invented self. So the God-created self can live.

Only when the self in quotes is dead can the self without quotes emerge.

And then, when I reenter the grotto, I find I am not alone. The Other has been with me all along, handing me rough stones with human contours, saying, “Shape these and give them meaning. Do this out of love.” I couldn’t see it when I was encased in quotes, but now I can: I am only able to do this because I am not alone.

And I never was.

About mitchteemley

Writer, Filmmaker, Humorist, Thinker-about-stuffer
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20 Responses to My Self in Quotes

  1. Deep thoughts Mitch. Beautiful & liberating.. 💫

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  2. Good stuff, Mitch. So often I begin to write and then feel like a clanging symbol. I need to do a better job of giving those moments over to the Lord and let Him speak through me to others. Thanks for this.

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  3. David Cosier says:

    After I read your post, this verse came to my mind: For you are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for you to do.(Ephesians 2:10)

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  4. TinaGk says:

    Absolutely love it! Inspiring to boot!

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  5. nancyehead says:

    That is so beautiful–and such a needed message today! Everyone’s gift isn’t writing, but we find Him in our gifts when we use them to reveal Him. Nice!

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  6. WOW! You had with the image…but the words, and meaning of them…deep, poignant, and really it’s the stuff Philosophers write and we mortals study and strive to understand.

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  7. Anita Bacha says:

    Love Is.
    Beautiful post and pictures Mitch. 💞

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  8. numrhood says:

    luke 34:48-49 colby says to magnify the lord

    Like

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