Part One: Doubt
I’m a congenital skeptic. Yet somehow I made the leap of faith. Still, I was troubled by recurring doubts. The idea of a God who loved me and created me to dwell with him and others in eternal love and unity just seemed too wonderful to be true. And yet, at the same time, it resonated deeply within me, far deeper than mere emotions or upbringing (and, no, it wasn’t what I was raised to believe).
So I asked Tim, a church elder, if he ever had any doubts about the reality of what he believed. “No, never,” he replied without a second’s hesitation. I was shattered. I’m a phony! For weeks, I kept my fake faith a secret. Finally, I confessed my doubts to Roger, a seasoned believer and theologian. “Well, of course you have doubts,” he said, “that’s what causes you to ask questions, to test your faith and make it grow.” “Well, what about Jim?” I asked. “Oh, Jim? He’s afraid to look. He doesn’t have enough faith for doubt.”
That was when I began to understand that doubt is a facet of faith, not it’s opposite. Khalil Gibran observed, “Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother.” Doubt is the shadow that helps us see the light. “Now I see but a dim reflection as in a mirror,” the Apostle Paul said, “but then I will see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known” (1 Corinthians 13:12).
Some thoughts by those who’ve wrestled with doubt:
“A faith without some doubts is like a human body without antibodies in it. People who blithely go through life too busy or indifferent to ask hard questions about why they believe as they do will find themselves defenseless against either the experience of tragedy or the probing questions of a smart skeptic.” ~Tim Keller
“Fanaticism is overcompensation for doubt.” ~Robertson Davies
“It is not as a child that I believe and confess Jesus Christ. My hosanna is born of a furnace of doubt.” ~Fyodor Dostoyevski
“Faith which does not doubt is dead faith.” ~Miguel de Unamuno
“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.” ~J.R.R. Tolkien
“It is when things go wrong, when good things do not happen, when our prayers seem to have been lost, that God is most present. We do not need the sheltering wings when things go smoothly. We are closest to God in the darkness, stumbling along blindly.” ~Madeleine L’Engle
“Faith is a journey, not a guilt trip.” ~Unknown
To read Part Two, click here.
This reminds me of when John the Baptist when in prison sent messengers to ask Jesus: Are you the one or should we expect someone else? (Luke 7:19) John took his doubts to Jesus who responded without scolding John. The scripture doesn’t tell us what John’s reaction was when the messengers reported back. My thought is John received blessed assurance Jesus was indeed the One! If John hadn’t asked the question, he wouldn’t have received it.
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luke 32:44 teach thee thy ways sashiengland
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Great example, Sashi.
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1 corinthians 11:12 13
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Welp. I think I just got my recommended weekly allowance of Vitamin P (profound). Keep it coming!
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;>)
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I never looked at faith/doubt this way. What a comfort!
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I remember the day I asked Jesus to save me. I was 3 years old and I woke my grandfather and my mother up at 3 in the morning and told them I had to “ask Jesus in my heart right now.” My faith and relationship with God has always felt like this huge, tangible thing and when I started to have doubts and questions about the reality and truth of it, I was so shaken up.
To be honest, I still berate myself when doubts or questions arise. After I’ve personally witnessed so many miracles and acts of love from my Savior, how in the world could I possibly doubt?
Thanks for your post. It honestly encouraged me a lot. I look forward to reading more!
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Glad it spoke to you, Megan. I think that, because faith a relationship with a Person, we have to re-discover that faith over and over again, just as husbands and wives have to fall in love over and over again if they want to have a strong, meaningful marriage.
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Thank you. I can now see doubt in a different light.
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I consider the opposite of faith as disbelief. Love this post. We need to understand that all the great mystics have been through the “dark night of the soul.” Thanks for quoting my favorite author Madeleine L’Engle. I was blessed to hear her speak at two conferences,
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I would love to have met Madeleine L’Engle!
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Beautiful. It is people like you that make my doubt seem meaningful to explore.
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Blessings on your journey of faith, Christina.
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Doubt is sometimes you finding your land legs on the new Rock you’re planting yourself on.
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Yep. Life on the Rock is challenging–wonderful, but challenging!
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Remember that old saying, “I believe; help my unbelief?” All of us have doubts, and that’s a good and healthy thing!
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Indeed.
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Sharing this, Mitch. Honest, comforting. Thanks :-).
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So glad it spoke to you, Cheryl. Thank you.
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Wonderful post, Mitch! Nothing to add to the many excellent responses here! 🙂 Just thank you!
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Hi Mitch,
Faith walks foward while doubt shrinks back. Thank you, Lord for your forward motion! In Christ,
Gary
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Thanks. I have struggled through the doubts over the years. I never gave up on my faith. Doubting Thomas was never deserted. He became a missionary to the eastern people. Thanks for sharing. God bless you.
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You too, Nitin.
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😊🙏
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