The Confessions of Peter, Part 2

wpid-Photo-Jul-18-2012-256-PMIn The Confessions of Peter, Part 1, Peter talked about meeting Jesus. Now he confronts his own darkness.

The Rock

“Jesus sent us out in twos, to preach and do miracles in his name. Did we believe it? We hoped. When an old rabbi in Gerazim said people are made righteous by following ‘every jot of the Law,’ I shouted, ‘No! The righteous live by faith.’ ‘What proof do you have that God accepts you?’ he asked, pointing with a hand that was withered like a little goat’s hoof. ‘In the name of Yeshua (Jesus), be healed!’ I said. When we left the synagogue, he was clutching the Torah with his perfectly restored hand!

I know now that I could never deny Jesus. Because he’s the one who restored the rabbi’s hand, and turned my sad little faith into a rock!

Still, why does he talk about going away?”

The End of My Self

“After the guards arrested him, I told myself I’d find a way to free him. But I didn’t. I denied even knowing him—three times—and saved the only thing I truly hate: my self. I went back to the Disciple’s House, and crawled into a corner.

Was I dreaming? A dark, faceless thing began circling me. I was dressed in excrement-soaked rags. The faceless thing kept tearing away pieces until I was completely naked. Then it lifted me into this huge net, surrounded by hideously ugly fish, and shook us into a burning trash pit. I watched as my own flesh fell away. I clawed at the edges, but the Thing kept pulling me back.

All of a sudden, there at the edge was a foot—strong, tortured. I grabbed it. The Dark Thing pulled me back, but blood began streaming from a wound on the foot, burning the Dark Thing’s hand. The creature fell back into the fire.

Then a hand that was pierced like the foot pulled me from the pit and laid my fleshless body in the cool, damp sand. My skin started to grow back, and suddenly the tattered rags began knitting themselves together, turning white and clean. When I awoke, I looked toward the hill they call Golgotha: three men were being crucified. And then I understood.

I have reached the end of my self.”

Feed My Sheep

“It couldn’t have happened. But it did. Jesus’ tomb was empty! I thought all the light had gone out of the world. But then suddenly he was there, standing before us! I kept staring at his feet, remembering.

We returned to Galilee. It felt good to be back on the water. We didn’t catch anything. But the next morning a man on the shore called for us to cast our net on the opposite side. And I knew.

When we finished breakfast, he said, ‘Simon’—my old name—‘Do you love me?’

‘Yes, Lord.’

‘Feed my lambs. Simon, do you truly love me?’

‘Yes, Lord.’

‘Take care of my sheep. Simon, do you love me?’

images-1He’d asked me if I loved him the same number times I’d denied him. ‘Lord, you know everything,’ I sobbed. ‘You know I love you.’ Then his eyes filled with tears and light came rushing back into the world. I think light is most beautiful when it makes a path in the darkness.

I knew I could die a thousand times and it wouldn’t be enough. But I also knew it wouldn’t be necessary because he’d already done it. And he still loved me.

And that was all that mattered.”

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18 Responses to The Confessions of Peter, Part 2

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  4. Kelly Anne Liberto says:

    Peter’s sifting during Jesus’ crucifixion has always intrigued me. I think his role as one of the leaders in the early church was so powerful because he endured this painful insight into his own weakness. Very encouraging post!

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  5. mitchteemley says:

    I agree, Kelly. And thank you.


  6. Great writing! And I love that the plot was stolen by our risen CHRIST!!

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  8. Nancy Ruegg says:

    The dream sequence includes powerful imagery of the ultimate “good,” Jesus, and evil. A memorable scene! You’ve captured what I imagine Peter’s personality to be, too. And the part where Jesus’ eyes fill with tears, out of love for Peter, is very moving. Thank you, Mitch, for a heart-warming, insightful post.

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  9. mitchteemley says:

    So glad you thought so, Nancy! He is (still) risen!


  10. richp45198 says:

    Beautiful, moving peace, Mitch. Thank you. Yesterday at Mass the Gospel of Luke was read. It includes my own personal favorite passage in the narrative — the story of St. Dismas, the Good Thief. As a person in recovery, Dismas reassures me that, even at our lowest point, forgiveness and redemption awaits if we ask “Lord, remember me when you come into your Kingdom.

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  11. Bette Cox says:

    Thank you Mitch. Excellent. I think Peter was doing his level best to stay close enough to rescue Jesus – he still didn’t understand God’s plan. To Peter, these “denials” were just necessary lies. But when Jesus looked at him, suddenly Peter understood what he HAD NOT understood – Jesus was still in control, he didn’t need or want to be rescued, by Peter or by thousands of angels. To see the whole picture of what was happening here, we need to understand the “take-charge” kind of man Peter actually was, one who Jesus understood very well. One who needed to know, really know, Who was actually in charge the whole time. See

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  12. mitchteemley says:

    Reblogged this on Mitch Teemley and commented:

    “Light is most beautiful when it makes a path in the darkness.”


  13. oneta hayes says:

    Brings me to tears. It is one thing to be forgiven from our sins when we were sinners. I’m thankful for that. But oh the humbling kind of impact when we realize that we have denied him in some way even after having been forgiven. Before we once accept Jesus, our sins are not betrayal; after knowing him and still choosing to sin is betrayal, and still he forgives!

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